losing another granny on the 16th of May!

         I can't believe that now when I want to call granny, who am I suppose to call? I don't have any granny at my side now... lost my dad's mom last year and this year, my mom's mom. Going to Canada was one of my dream; I had always wanted to go to Canada to meet my granny(mom's mom) because when I was small, she brought me up till three years old. I also had always wanted to go to Canada because my childhood friends are there and I also got lots of aunts and uncles there. Now when my granny is no more, I don't know if there is any use of going to Canada. Nowadays I feel so tired, I feel like there is no reasons to live further cos once I think about what I want to do in future, it scares me! Will continue writing it later when I have the mood too. cos now it's too noisy and it's distracting my concentration!

Too Good to people leads to what?

           I really don't know when I'll stop to help people who are not worth helping. I guess it's in my genes or in my blood; all my family members like to help people when they are in need. I know it's good to help people. I tried to correct myself from helping those who don't deserve a help but then I can't. I am always there to help them and solve their problems. Why? If the people whom I helped will always remember that I had helped them before and would thank me for helping them, then I would be really willing to help those kinds of people. When people whom I helped don't thank me, I'll surely remember and not help them in future cos those people are not worth helping. They don't deserve to be helped and treated well. Why is it that those person good friends can't help and can only say, I know how it feels like and blah blah…..

          I know I sounded mean. I should learn to be mean otherwise people will always take advantage of me. I guess it's just that people here are different from those in my home town. People almost my age or smaller than me always act so childish and that's really unbearable. Really don't know when they will grow up… I wish I can be mean and cunning.. hehehhe… Hope I succeed in becoming one!

Don't expect much from even your nearest person whom you meet everyday. Like what Kenneth said in his msn personal message, he said, 'New clothes are better than old ones but old friends are better than new ones.' I agree with him. There is a saying, "Old is Gold." It works very well when used talking about friends and not much about other stuff.

Today, I went to Doors to work because Lydia and Alice got some work to do and couldn't make it there. Actually Samantha was to go but then she asked me if I would like to go and work. I thought it would be good to earn one more day and earn few hundreds. Today, I feel I didn't have much time to rest at work. I don't know why. Guess it's because there were too much homework and test correction of theirs to be checked.

Life is really journey. It' a long, long journey only if we are able to live that long. We never know when and what will happen to us anytime. Our life is not in our hands. It's in God's hands. What I expect in life is to be happy and have enough money to survive without having to beg for food. There is no one on earth who doesn't hunger for money. Money is human's best friend. Without money, you are no one in this world. That's what I believe. I had enough of such discrimination. I won't balme my parents for not being rich, because not everyone born in a rich family are always happy. I feel that as long as I am with my family. That's more than anything I could expect.

It's really been a long time now since I last wrote an entry in my blog. Actually creating a blog was not my idea, we were asked to create a blog by our writing teacher. I feel it's really nice to have a blog where we don't have to write but we type in our entry. Class started for me on the 25th of February. There are many boring subjects to study but then college life is like this and we can enjoy our lives well only if we are not studying.hehehhe....

I am working three days a week in Doors English. Earning some income for myself because the living expenses are quite high in Taiwan and so when I start to work, I can ease my parent's tension because they don't have to pay for my daily expenses money when I can earn it myself. Working in a cram school gave me a very good experience understanding and communicating with students and also learning along with them. There are quite a lot of things that I didn't learn in school so sometimes, it's really good to learn and know more about all those things what I've never heard about or learned during my school life.

I really want to learn a lot of things and don't want to regret things that I've done because regretting now is too late! Since life is a never ending learning process. I want to learn as many things as I could when my heart still beats( still alive) hahahha........