Tiredness!!!

     Nowadays, I feel my mind is not functioning properly. I know I should see a doctor as soon as possible, but there is something that's stopping me and I don't know what it is. These days my eyes just pain like hell. I don't know why. Is it because of the hot weather that is making me feel so tired these days? I feel I cannot concentrate much in class and cannot sleep well at night too. I don't want to lead a miserable life like this. I don't understand what some of the teacher wants us to do. They asked us to do things that are impossible and tough. Don't know what to do now… so many works undone and so many things bugging me now. Hope God will give me the wisdom to study and do my work properly.

Stupid he!!!

I don't know what he was thinking when I called him. He might think I am after him or something like that because I called him so many times. He might think I love him. Whatever he thinks, he is wrong. I don't have any good feeling for him. He is just a person whom I have met months ago. When I called him for some help, he said he would help me out and when I called him again, he said he is busy and when I called him the next time, he didn't pick up the phone. What does he think of himself? A handsome guy?? Frankly speaking he is not handsome and I am not blind to fall for a guy like him. I have no plans in patching up with guys in Taiwan because there will be loads of communication problem since the language we speak are different. I guess he is in his twenties and I find him very stupid and childish. When will the boys in Taiwan grow up?? Just can't stand their childishness..

Hot, hot and hot....

Don't know why the temperature is so high in Yun Lin. Yesterday and day before yesterday and today the temperature is high. I know its summer now and so definitely it will be hot. How I wish we have air conditioner in our dormitory! In that case we can at least live in our dormitory happily and concentrate on our studies better. It's so hot that I can't concentrate on my studies and work and the sun is at its highest these days that I don't feel like going out. Once you stepped out, you are almost half wet. Day before yesterday, I went outside our university to buy fresh fruits. I cycled there, and when I reached there I was almost half wet. I know that sweating is good for our body but too much sweating makes us stink and I hate that. Hope we have air conditioner in our dormitory next semester!

Never know!!

I never know that life is full of ups and downs until I was in my high school.
I never know that you'll change so fast in a short span of time.
I never know that I'll not be abe to live without you by my side.
I never know that sometimes I can dream of you.
I never know that we'll have to part so fast when we have just started our relation.
I never know that we will be far from one another.
I never know that we will be in a different country now.
I never know that we will hardly see each other online.
I never know that we will have to face so many different kinds of people around us.
I never know that we will miss each other so much.

    There are so many things I'll never know until I experience it. There are many things yet to be known by me  soon. 

Am I living in a university's dormitory??

         There are times I feel like I am not living in a dormitory but in a mental asylum. My classmates are so noisy that I am having problem sleeping. They don't want to sleep and they won't let others sleep too. They talk and laugh so loud that they don't care if others will get disturbed or not. They have got such loud and shrill voice that it's sometimes scary. They don't care a shit about others. When I try to sleep early, they don't let me to. In that case, I get lack of sleep and as a consequence I fall asleep in class. I want to live a normal life. Why don't these people let me live happily or at least peacefully? Today I came to know that I'll have to live with them again next semester. I don't want to live with them anymore because one experience is enough and I don't need a second one. I wish God will hear my prayers and help me out. I'll leave this decision to God then.    

The Almighty!!

      I don't know what I am up to these days. I don't know why people have to force me to do things that I don't like to do. Why don't people give me my own space? Why don't they let me live happily? Why do I feel so pressurized? Is this what we called life? Is this the life everyone should live? Did I feel like this before when I was back in India?
 
     Only one person can tell me the answer to each and every of my above question, and He is God, the almighty. Whenever I am in trouble, I just pray to God and He always help me solve my problems. I don't know without Him, what will happen to me. I thank God for everything He has done for me and He has provided me with. Without Him I will be suffering now. 

Movies week!!!

      Yesterday night I was about to write my blog when suddenly something stop me from writing. Can you guess what is it?? I guess you won't be able to guess it out. It's my mood. When I signed in to my blog and clicked new post and try to write something about what I did yesterday, I started to feel as if I have nothing much to write when I have so much to. Yesterday the weather was really hot and so my friends and I decided to go to the eight floors in the library to watch movie. Yesterday we watched 'Offbeat,' It's a nice movie and I guess it’s not suitable for children below 18 years old. Hahahahaah…So you have to be 18 years old to watch this movie. Today in the morning, the weather was hot and we went to the library again and we watched two and a half movies… the first one we watched is called 'Betty Fisher,' the second one is called 'The Emperor's Club' and the third one that is the half movie is called 'The Green Mile.’

     We didn't get to finish watching 'The Green Mile' last week and so we finished watching it today. I know people will think we are mad that we watched so many movies everyday. Let's see which movie we will be watching tomorrow. I guess it's our movies week. 'The Green Mile’ and 'The Emperor's Club' is a great movie. I find that I have watched those two movies before but I didn't have much idea about it when I first see the name of the movie and after watching few scenes of it, I realized I have watched those movies before. I recommend you all to watch these two movies because it's worth watching and both are great movies. I will let you know more about the movies I watched these days… till then have patience reading my blog. Hahahah….

  

Just couldn't sleep well!!

          Yesterday I slept at 11 o' clock and then it was too hot in my room that I woke up at 3:30 am in the morning and couldn't go back to sleep again. I try to get an eight hour sleep or at least six hours sleep every day, but I couldn't do so because of this hot weather. It makes me feel sick. When can I get a good sleep?? I guess I won't get any good sleep until this year second semester end. Why is it that our dormitory doesn't have elevator and air conditioner in the room? Without good sleep, how can students attend class well?? Most students will doze off to sleep in class because they didn't sleep well, I do doze off to sleep in some class when I am really dead tired. Hope the university's management will look into all these problems and help solve it. For me, it's really tiring and painful to attend class without a good sleep.

The Phantom of the Opera

        Yesterday we didn't have our history class at 1 o'clock because the teacher has some work to do. Most of the students in our class went to the eighth floor of our university's library to watch movies. I went with some of our classmates and since we are five of them and so we can use one room to watch the movie. We watched 'The Phantom of the Opera,' I've heard people say the movie is good, especially when they communicate to each other by singing and not by talking. The Phantom of the Opera is also available in novels. People who want to read about the story can read it and also watch it in movie. My classmates chose this movie and we five sat comfortably in that small theatre room. I like the most in this movie is the way they communicate with each other by singing in their sweet voice and the song 'The Phantom of the Opera'  is a nice one too. Both the actor and the actress have a good face cut and physique. How I wish I can sing as well as the people in the movie sang. At last, I watched this movie. People who did not watch it yet please go ahead and watch it. I guarantee you will like it and would not regret.

Diet!!

        

         I know I should loose some extra pounds. In order to loose some weight, I need to follow a strict and healthy diet but it's not easy to maintain a healthy diet when I am staying in a dormitory. When I was at home, I follow some healthy diet by eating self made wheat bread which is called 'roti'  in India. I eat minimum amount of meat and eat loads of green vegetables and fresh salad. My fresh salad includes cabbage, cucumber, onion, carrot, coriander, lemon juice, some salt and sugar. I don't use mayonnaise in my salad because mayonnaise is fattening. At home I cut down on my intake of rice because eating rice can make people fat and so I eat roti for breakfast, lunch and dinner. At times I would eat noodles instead of rice because noodles contains less carbohydrates. People get fed up eating roti everyday, but I don't. Instead I like roti more than the bread available in the market. My self made roti is free from preservatives and does not include baking powder.

             After I came to Taiwan I didn't get to eat roti because I don't have a kitchen where I can cook for myself everyday. So everyday we have to eat at the food stall or small restaurants. I know eating outside is not as healthy as cooking it myself. I really miss cooking. How I wish I have a kitchen of my own! In that way, I can eat healthy and stay fit and loose some extra pounds.

Why are babies so cute??

        Whenever I see few months old babies, I feel like holding them because they are just so sweet and adorable. I just love babies. When I was a kid, my dream in future was to be a babysitter, to look after them with care, give them bath, take them for a walk, and dress them up in their cute little clothes. I've got many siblings at home and being the eldest I have to look after the young ones and so I enjoy spoon feeding them and looking after them. I used to take my siblings out for a walk outside our house everyday. When I recall it now, I really miss it a lot, When I was in Taipei, every time when I go out with my aunt and when I see cute little babies, I would say " the baby is so cute and I want to hold them" and my aunt's reply would be “Why don't you get married soon and have a child of your own?"  and I would just laugh away and tell her I will get married when the time has come… babies are cute that's why I love them…Babies looks more cute when they learn how to walk and talk and do funny things that makes people laugh. How I wish I can find a babysitting job!

Don't know why it always happens to me????

I really don't know why I couldn't sleep every time when I had tea or coffee. Yesterday there was a buy one gets one free offer in Han Teng drinks shop. So after class at 3:30 pm , Ellie and I went to buy drinks because I was feeling so thirsty and it's also a great offer, in that case we can save 10NT$ on one drink. I brought oolong tea with bubbles and Ellie brought red tea with bubbles. I finished drinking my tea and bubbles before 5 pm and then Ellie asked me out to have dinner with her in our university's canteen at 5:20 pm. After having dinner, Ellie got to attend her Spanish class and she didn't finished her red tea with bubbles yet, so she gave her tea to me and asked me to finished drinking it for her since she needs to attend class and she is feeling so full that time. She kept on asking me to drink it and so I accept it and I finished drinking it for her.

Red tea and bubbles was so strong that when I went to sleep at 1:30 am, I couldn't sleep. I lay in bed till 3 am and still can't sleep and so I came down from my bed and played free cell game and other games till 5 am in the morning. I can't type also because one of my roommates gets disturbed very fast. Then I force myself to get some sleep since we need to go sweeping floors at 7 am in the morning. I then went to bed but still couldn't sleep and lie for another few minutes and fell asleep soon. I slept for some half hour and then woke up to get ready because I don't want to be late. I didn't feel asleep in the morning class, but fell asleep in the second period of psychology class. I decided not to drink so much tea and coffee, because it will ruin my health and make my dark circles darker. This isn't the first time, it had happened many time before too.

Mother's day!!

          
     Last year I missed celebrating mother's day with my mom, because she was in Canada to meet my granny. This year, it's me who is far away from home. I never knew that I will be missing so many years of mother's day celebration with my mom. Hope I can celebrate mother's day with my mom next year.

           My mom had always been my guide and she is my best friend too. We share a lot of secrets together.There is nothing kept unknown between my mom and I. When I was in India, I ride my mom to the market everyday. We both enjoy going shopping together. She always asks me if the clothes look nice or not before buying them. She won't buy anything without asking me. She had always stood by me through thick and thin. She had always been by my side when I needed her the most. There are times when I do get angry with her on small problems, but now when I come to think of it, I feel I shouldn't be angry with her because she had done many things for me.

                 I thank my mom for giving birth to me, because she had to undergo so much pain. I thank her for teaching me how to walk and talk. Without her, I wouldn't have stood on my feet and walk. I thank her for the food she cooked for me, for the clothes she brought for me and I thank her for everything. She had done so much for me in these nineteen years. She never complained about what she does for me and so I should also not complain about anything. Being the eldest in the family, there are a lot of burden on my shoulder to leave the family since I have so many siblings at home and since I insist leaving, so I should not regret that I left home.

              I will always cherish each and every second spend with my mom. Moms are the best. We should always love our mom and thank her for everything she did for us. Anyways mom, I just want to wish you Happy Mother's day in advance. Don't worry mom, I'll remember to call and talk to you. Love you always, my sweet and loving mom. You really are the best.!! Missing you so much!! Muaahhhh mommmy

Yesterday was realy a GREAT day!

               I never knew I can be so happy when I am with Phoebe and Ellie. Both of them rocks, they made my day a happy one from morning till night. We three are just like Charlie Angel's making our moves together and we talk all craps and we laugh like anything. Ellie likes to hear me talk some of the words in Chinese and she would laugh her ass out after hearing it. I know my Chinese is not so fluent like people over here, but I feel as far as I can communicate with people, its okay. No one is perfect in this world, but practice makes a man perfect. So I believe in practicing to talk more in Chinese so I can improve myself.


           I feel yesterday was a lucky day, may be it's because I am with a new group now. Met and talked to someone whom I've not met for a month. I met that someone early in the morning yesterday and it makes me feel nice. I've never thought we will meet again. Lucky group will surely bring me good luck. Good friends are really hard to fine. When I am with Phoebe and Ellie, I feel like I am back in India, because we just talk everything and anything. There is nothing kept unknown between us. Hope to be friends forever. (cross my fingers) hehehe.....

A song to sing when you are happy...

If you're happy and you know it clap your hands, clap, clap
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands, clap, clap
If you're happy and you know it and you really want to show it,
if you're happy and you know it clap your hands, clap, clap.


If you're happy and you know it tap your toes, tap, tap
If you're happy and you know it tap your toes, tap, tap
If you're happy and you know it and you really want to show it,
if you're happy and you know it tap your toes, tap, tap.


If you're happy and you know it click your fingers, click, click
If you're happy and you know it click your fingers, click, click
If you're happy and you know it and you want to show it,
if you're happy and you know it click your fingers, click, click.


If you're happy and you know it say Amen, Amen
If you're happy and you know it say Amen, Amen
If you're happy and you know it and you really want to show it,
if you're happy and you know it say Amen, Amen.

Do not treat people too good!

          The reason why I said not to treat people too good because its my experience. I've been treating one of my classmates too good that in return what she gives me is just a whole script of bad things about me. If she is brave enough, she can tell me face to face. Guess she doesn't have the guts to, that she has to write it in her blog. For no reason she gets angry with me and stop talking to me. People stop talking to one another for a specific reason, but she is a real exceptional one.

           I remember when I go out with other friends and not her, I would ask her if she wants me to buy her lunch or dinner or not and I would buy it for her. When she goes out with friend or when she already had her dinner, she wouldn't tell me until I ask her. At times she would also buy my dinner IF only  I ask her to, if not she won't ask. There are lots more to say about a friend like this who really deserves a kick on the ass. I am happy that I don't have to see her face everyday at lunch or dinner time, except in class. I am now as free as a bird. I don't regret for loosing such friend and instead I am happy I see the real her in the first year of college, otherwise God knows how long I've got to suffer. God knows which friends are good and bad for me and I also guess God don't want to see me suffer and so he let me loose one useless and good for nothing friend and gave me two more caring and sweet friends. I thank God for everything he has given me and also for the decision he had made for me.

Great friends to be with!!

I've came across many kinds of people in my life, some good and some bad, some nice and some rude. When I came to Taiwan, I met many kinds of people around me. Some are just cute and sweet and they always care about me and some are just hi and bye friends. I've been close to few of my classmates like Eve, Phoebe and Ellie. I share my problems with them. They are what I say friends that care. I feel happy when I am with them, I can laugh a lot too since they talk things that sounds funny and are funny. I like hanging with them because when I am with them, they made my day a happy one. Nowadays I am mostly with Phoebe and Ellie, because Eve went home and I feel I am very happy when I am with Phoebe and Ellie because they always keep me laughing.

Yesterday morning, we went to the eight floors in our university's library to watch a movie called "The Green Mile." Actually it's Phoebe and Ellie's assignment work to watch the movie, since I got nothing to do so I joined them. We didn't finished watching the movie and had to stop because it was 12 o'clock that time and so we planned to watch it again on days when we are free. It's nice to watch movies with friends that are close to me. They are really great friends to be with. Thanks to them these days for buying me my dinner, because these days I feel so tired to go out to have dinner.